Most of you know that I’ve been job-hunting over the past year, having been laid off my job about 15 months ago. I am happy to report that this past week I accepted an offer to be the Communications Director at a church called Eastside Christian, here in southern California.
I haven’t talked a lot about my journey here, mostly because I felt like such a miserable failure at it. I was frequently depressed, angry, frustrated, apathetic, and full of self-pity. But I took a look back through my posts over the last year, and found that the things I said about God all turned out to be true. This of course does not surprise you. But for me it is a revelation to see my experience match my beliefs.
I both feared and counted on God’s fondness for dramatic rescues. In the spirit of David, I poured out my feelings and rewrote Psalm 40. And, like Job, I learned that God sometimes strips everything away so we’re truly alone and without identity… and then he answers out of the storm.
I don’t start my new job for another week. And this too is significant. Because while I had so much freelance work in the past 4 months I almost couldn’t keep it straight, it had all wrapped up and the last scheduled project – an event at a local University of California campus – finishes this week. Yes, you read that right. I, of course, had already started worrying about what I would do next. You also need to know that a friend with a PR agency who hired me to write for several of her clients happened to have an unusual year – one with two enormous, income-generating events including the UC event. Coincidence? I think not.
I am excited, joyful, humbled, and grateful. The main thing I’ve learned is that I haven’t arrived anywhere. Like – thank goodness that unemployment thing is behind me and I can finally get on with my life. I really see it as another leg in the journey of my life. One with new friends, new challenges, and new opportunities to grow in trusting a faithful God.