TJV = The Jan Version:
I’ve waited for God so often in my life;
he hears me. He notices.
He’s rescued me from some pretty crappy situations,
Messy, lonely, no-light-at-the-end-of-the-tunnel places;
and put me on solid footing.
I have a life so rich I never thought it was possible,
and it’s only because of him.
Incredibly, my story has encouraged others,
and reminds them of God’s faithfulness.
God, really, you’ve done so many amazing things.
So many “coincidental” things that fit together perfectly.
When I think back over my life,
I see you working everywhere.
And you know what? I think I’m finally starting to get it.
It’s not about anything I’ve done, how I served or how much I gave.
Turns out it’s just like the Bible says:
God is pleased when our only goal is to become the person He wants.
God, I’ve been telling everyone about your interaction in my story.
I’ve told about both the successes, and my failures.
I’m not trying to do it by myself – alone, in secret;
I talk about your faithfulness and provision.
I tell everyone in the blogosphere and twitterverse
of your love and faithfulness to me.
So don’t hold back now.
Now, when I’m really counting on your unfailing love and faithfulness and protection.
Because I’m afraid, drowning in “what if’s?”—
and I can’t see a way out.
I’m sorry God, I’ve lost all courage.
Please, Lord, rescue me…
As soon as possible, please help me.
And if there are those who think “she must have done something to deserve it,”
or, “thank God I’m not in her position,”
Well, let them see what happens when you’re in charge.
In fact, let them be stunned by what you do in my life.
And for others who are desperately searching for you
Oh God please provide for all their needs and most of their wants.
Fill them with your hope and joy and faith and gratitude
until all they can say is, “ohmygosh God is so awesome!”
As for me, since I am poor and needy,
God, just let me know you haven’t forgotten me.
I do trust you to save me.
But dear God, would you please hurry?