I made my house payment today. Normally, this would be unremarkable, except that it happens to be due tomorrow, and as of Saturday I did not have enough money in hand to pay it. I have a department store paycheck coming this week. And a freelance check. And I requested some money from a CD that hadn’t arrived. My sister and a friend offered to float me some money. I really wasn’t sure what to do – I do believe God can provide money from nowhere, though I couldn’t imagine how. I wanted to trust him, but still make all the necessary preparations.
But wait… first I have to tell you why this whole “trusting God” thing – which by the way, runs counter to my personality and history – has become such a marvel. One: the job in men’s shoes I originally disdained, that turned out to be one of the few seasonal temp jobs that paid commission.
Two: Discovering on my first day that I was only scheduled for one day per week, I was incredibly disappointed. I felt like I’d done everything I could to be responsible, and still failed. But for once (I’m rather ashamed to admit) I didn’t accuse God. I acknowledged that he was aware of the schedule. There wasn’t anything else to do but accept it. And the next day the manager called, explaining that someone had resigned because he didn’t have enough hours, and asked if I could take his entire shift. I worked about 30 hours last week. God was indeed aware of the schedule.
Which brings us to Three: On Saturday I received a Christmas card from a friend that included a very generous check. Out of nowhere.
Are you seeing this? Because I have to say that in all my years of living safely and managing my life, I really hadn’t. I saw it happen for others, but had not really experienced it myself. It’s wild! And one of the key things I’m learning is that in His Kingdom Among Us, things are not as they appear to our human eye. An “unattractive” position in men’s shoes. A one-day-a-week schedule. A gap between checkbook and payment due. I guess that’s faith… to look beyond the visible – waiting with expectancy for the answer that may yet remain unseen.