I’ve debated for several days about whether or not to write this post. The simple reason is that it would involve being specific about money, and 1) my mother would roll over in her grave to think I was being so ill-mannered as to talk about money publicly, and 2) everyone knows it’s ill-mannered to talk about publicly.
Still, I’m not sure how to write about my current unemployed situation and desire to be transparent about my faith/fears and God, and not at some point talk about money. So… here we are.
I think I’ve mentioned I am receiving severance through the end of July. I’ve been living very thriftily, doing some freelance writing projects and carefully saving all my income. I’ve probably got enough to get through the next couple of months, which was a little relief. And then, the service light came on in my car. A regular service, followed by a dead battery, two trips to the dealer, and almost $600 later, I looked at my checkbook and felt the pinch of anxiety. Why did I have to spend that money on my car? Who knew what I might need it for in the next few months?
In that moment, I realized that it is not my money management skills that will get me through this situation. Whether God said it or I thought it, I understood that “that’s not how this is going to work.” I decided to be thankful that I had the $600 to pay for the repairs, and trust God to provide what I would need in the future.
Two days later I got a check in the mail for $600.
Now. It was money I was expecting, though I didn’t know when. But still. This has only happened to me once before in my life. I’m amazed and pretty excited. I figured you might be too.